It was easier to say "I want to go home" rather than "I want to go somewhere to die". And after everything was over, I felt... I don't know. But I didn't want any of them to know, I didn't want to see how they'd look at me if they knew the truth. So I kept quiet.
[You love all the monster friends you made with all your heart, but you don't think you could stand the horror or pity if they knew your past and your reasons. It's funny, really. Because even if you told yourself you wanted to disappear, to die, you had so many chances and yet you were DETERMINED not to give up.
Maybe all you really wanted, deep down, was to find people who cared. And after Toriel, and Sans and Papyrus, it gave you enough hope to hold on.]
Sans... is the best. He cares so much, and so deeply, and even if he looks and acts lazy he's so cool and protective. He makes me feel safe, for the first time in my life.
[You pause, taking a breath before letting it out.]
That's why, when fighting him, I found the strength to give up, to reset, and fix what we had destroyed. It was all for him, to have a chance to be with him again. Every time he killed us, every time he refused to give up, I felt my heart grow stronger and give me the strength I didn't think I had on my own.
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[You love all the monster friends you made with all your heart, but you don't think you could stand the horror or pity if they knew your past and your reasons. It's funny, really. Because even if you told yourself you wanted to disappear, to die, you had so many chances and yet you were DETERMINED not to give up.
Maybe all you really wanted, deep down, was to find people who cared. And after Toriel, and Sans and Papyrus, it gave you enough hope to hold on.]
Sans... is the best. He cares so much, and so deeply, and even if he looks and acts lazy he's so cool and protective. He makes me feel safe, for the first time in my life.
[You pause, taking a breath before letting it out.]
That's why, when fighting him, I found the strength to give up, to reset, and fix what we had destroyed. It was all for him, to have a chance to be with him again. Every time he killed us, every time he refused to give up, I felt my heart grow stronger and give me the strength I didn't think I had on my own.